When I started the New Year with my art buddies at The Hive gallery, I felt this amazingly , overwhelming excitement of so many cool things to come ;not realizing
that the feeling I was having could easily turn the other direction in an instant ;
without me even seeing it coming for a second . It was sad because , all I want to do
is make something so grand , and bring artists and like minded people together for the cause of getting our art out there to the masses , but theres always this purple haze that comes over some people that makes them sweat you , and the next thing you know you are hated , and told you are taking advantage of them , or don't give them the respect they deserve . I got all this on the January 2nd , thank God New Years was amazing! I hung out with my friends , and we all were in agreement that this documentary that Im doing is gonna open some doors . I can honestly say they all believe in me and that feels good! They also don't for one second believe I am taking advantage of them in any kind of way , and they're all so giving as well. The person I was working with on this documentary, basically decided to get out of the partnership, told me they did all the work and that it was theres . This is of course not true , I had invited them to join me on this quest , because this person hadn't done anything in about 3yrs , I wanted to help them out . Im glad , because of all the positive feedback that came from it,this person now believes that it came all from them and only them, but I worked very hard to get the project so I stand by my argument that this baby is mine! Luckily we only did one artist so worst case , I could redo the first half and explain to the artist that I have to do her part again , I think she likes me enough that she would understand , so Im not to worried , but my point being , don't let anyone stop you from your dreams. I realized that I am feared, envied , hated , and all this comes with the territory when you create something that is pretty real . I know that in order for me to continue this quest I must put aside all my own fears and doughts and not be afraid and believe in myself , trust in my own heart , that I am on the right path . I feel bad for the one I must leave behind on this project , she is an amazing artist herself , it is ashame she feels this way , but to just give what I know I worked so hard to get for months , to prove myself to all the artists I was filming , and finally get to do a documentary on two artists I had took the time to find , that was all my work and I can't give it away.Thats what I would be doing . So I stand my ground on my dream , my art , my project . A new year with others that fear , I no longer take the burdens of others, been doing that way to long . I guess you can say thats kinda my new years resolution
The person who pulled out ... is my daughter Krystal...I have told you about her
well her darkside is back with a vengence , shes out for my blood , but whatever right... I just let that go and stay away and I as usual will be ok...
Good things are coming for this year , lets hold on tight and get ready for the wild ride
of 2012 !
As always thank you all for listening , it really does mean so much to me , I sometimes feel
very lonely in this world , but its nice to know your hear. : )
Mary Ann K