Wishcast Wednsday:What do you wish to begin?

Greetings & Salutations fellow Wishcasters! I have missed doing this for about a month now , I have not done wishcasting , so miss reading all your posts , I hope to be wishcasting more often . So! today the beautiful Jamie Ridler asks us , what do you wish to begin ? Well I wish to begin thinking about myself . This whole time I have been dealing with my daughter being confussed about whether or not she wants to come back home for school or live where shes living right now which is about 45 minutes away . As parents we always want our children to know we will always be there for them , no matter what ,because we love them so much , but my daughter is so scared to stay focused and mean what she says , and my life ,goals,& dreams come to a hault everytime she says, " OK I really want to take my education seriously", then we started trying to prepare for her to move back , we have a guest appartment for her we just need to paint and get it ready but everytime we start ,she goes back to , " No ,I think Im gonna stay where Im at ." This has happened twice already . I love her dearly , but Im wasting my time and my deadline on my crafts to sell on my etsy and various craft shows have been neglected , because I stop everything because I want to help her. I have realized since the last Bi-polar incident ,that I have to stop doing that and it felt good to finally realize that I don't have time for procrastination anymore . I don't have time for confusion with others in my family . These kids have to figure it out and sometimes it means stepping away,leaving them be to do that . I on the other hand , know what I want . I want to begin being organized , and thats what I've done , I went & got these shelves and put them up & now my art studio is starting to have a focus even with it not done yet with putting stuff away , I feel the difference , I feel the new beginnings in their . Its funny that Jamie made this the question , and it so happened to be exactly what I was doing .

We as loving,hard working women have to start thinking about what we want in our lives . We need to stop being so worried about everything and everyone , because we deserve our dreams and goals too ladies! Really! We do so much for our families , this is the one thing we love to do is our art and we want to be able to share it to the masses , whether it be on etsy or at a fair,craftshow , we don't ask for much ,but this we can ask of our families .

So I wish to begin thinking of myself , my dreams and my goals :

This is a a art journal page I did sorry the lighting was bad so you can't really see what it says . It says, " Tired of worrying about everyone else time to think of ME !"

Since I've been thinking of me , my energy has been amazing,I've started to get out into my community and network , I feel really positive , I see everything coming together , now all my projects that Im working on are all laid out in front of me where now Im not lost in my projects anymore because its all organized in my art studio , this is the place to be, this is where I hope to stay.

Thanks for stopping by as always it means alot.

Until next time Muah! XOXO

Luv,

MaryAnnk

time to focus journal 2...

Greetings & Salutations ! How are all of you ? Yesterday was a good day , I have my grandbaby Zan over for the memorial day weekend so I have been having lots of fun catching up as grandma , I rarely see my sweet stuff , well I see her with her mom & dad most the time , this is the first time in a while that I have had one on one time with the little one , & its been really nice . I did some work in the art studio first thing in the morning , then went to lunch with Dave & Zan at one of our favorite thai joints out here in Canyon country called Siam Rice.

We had our lunch which was , as always! very yummy afterwards we always get our fortune cookies which at this resturant for some reason always seem kind of real , strange I know , I guess because we want to believe that it comes close to the truth . So Zan is a pro already opening up her fortune cookie , but her favorite part is eating the cookie LOL!

So then after , we head over to the market & what do we always do when Zan sees one of those put your quarters in for a ride thingies ? So we tell her you can go on that if you are a good girl in the market k ? and she says, " O.K." and she was so guess who got to go on the merry-go-round ? Yes you got it! The Zan !

What Im starting to do more often than what I did before is , to start reminding myself what means alot to me , what I have to always cherish , what I should be thankful for in my life .My little precious family I truly am thankful for . I only had one child in my life that I bore , my daughter Krystal Rose. She gave me a beautiful grandbaby Zan aka Athena Rose and Dave gave me both of them . I never thought I would be a mom let alone a good one LOL! But I can say I turned out alright , I did and my daughter is a pretty awesome girl that Im so glad I had her . She taught me alot about who I was . I know that I didn't know who I was before her . I was trying to figure it out before I had her but , I just wasn't figuring it out quite right. Now I see my daughter with her daughter and I know why Im on planet earth now, for my beautiful girls and my soulmate Dave.

These are the reasons for me to be thankful , and to remember what I do have , the love for my little family & how much they really need me , and how I need them too ! Thanks for listening and stoppin' by as always I love ya!

Muah! XOXO

Luv,

Maryannk

Time to focus ....

Greetings & Salutations ! How are all of you ? Well... I have been doing alot of thinking besides my working hard on my crafty bag line that seems so far away to get to , everytime I set a goal for myself to put it out there on my etsy , I swear! life gets in the way . I really believe that I have to get into my art studio when everyones sleeping because then I know that no one will bother me because their all sleeping LOL! I kid you not! I woke up today and its 7:30am & the minute the hubby knows Im up, its " We need to do..." I just loose it! I go, " you know what I have stuff to do". Its been really difficult to get into my art , because to him its having fun, not working. I have decided to just step back & find myself, so I will probably not be doing as many videos anymore until I get my stuff up & running . I hate this feeling of not succeeding in just " DOING IT" , I don't feel like Im being taken seriously by anyone ,most of all am I even taking myself seriously? Im tired of talkin' and not doin' the walkin' into my dreams & my art. I believe my talent is real , I think all artists should believe their talent is real to them and go for it, but for me , I can't seem to get through my personal life, push through it and do it! I have decided that Im not gonna post anything on facebook except a journal here on my blog telling you how Im getting through it and hopefully be able to show you how Im getting my art out there and helping others like the runaway girls that I am suppose to be starting an art journal club with them this summer. I love knowing you all and I thank you as always for stopping by and hearing my thoughts . I know that alot of us are very much alike and we just want to know that we're not the only ones going threw similar obstacles. If I could take an ecourse on getting it going like Jamie Ridlers sparkle course , I would but , I don't have that kind of money to afford to pay for the course , so that is a distant thought to do . I have great ideas , I see that they are sellable , but when will I finish something and be able to put it up and sell them ? These are all the things I need to figure out. Stepping away should be a good thing , and journaling it here , I think will be healthy for me and let you see how I get out of my rut . I will be on Twitter so you will hear from me there but the only thing is not on facebook, I will just post a blog to let ya know whats been going on . I hope that I will help you all in your rut , & some of you have helped me in my rut , with recommending books and thank you so much for that , again it means alot , when you all speak to me and give me advice , thanks for caring : )

So inconclusion to this revelation, I know in my heart that I have talent . Im not afraid to say anymore that I am an artist , because I believe so , I have always been!

Its realizing that belief and thats a big battle that I hope to break very soon. So here is the beginning of my Time to focus journals !

Thanks for listening I love ya ! : )

Muah! XOXO

luv,

MaryannK

Long time since I have blogged my thoughts....

Hello everyone ! Sorry I haven't been here in a while . I just feel like my life is so slow in coming out roses . LOL! You know how sometimes you just wake up one day and coincidentally it just happens to be the day of , " The End Of The World " , and I just realize what I've been doing in the last month when my Etsy shop should have been up , I can't even finish stuff because last minute its , " we gotta do this!" "we gotta do that", my life has been JUMP!JUMP! and I just don't question any of it and just GO!GO! without question all for people who don't know how to take charge and think straight and that includes me . I don't know how many of you read my blogs , I thank you for those who do ; those who can relate , it truly means alot . Honestly I have been trying so hard to get things going in my life , but I feel like everything around me is always in my way . Sometimes people in your life don't get it . They think that because they give you everything that you owe them a favor.When sometimes giving people everything isn't enough , its actually a control mechanism , to keep you where they want you to be . Its very minipulating , because they only give you just enough to survive,but you never get past that point. You just find yourself working all the time and never getting anymore ,so dreams go out the door.

My life has been so crazy , when I thought I found balance , the balance wasn't their, it was an illusion of balance . I find myself from one place to the next and at one point you just have to say I need to be home to get MY STUFF DONE!! nothing else matters . Today I had to say STOP! TAKE CHARGE! No one puts their lives in check. I go into these anxiety attacks more often than the norm because I just don't see our dreams getting done . We really have no excuses . I find all I ever do is clean this place or that place and then do more at my living place and it sucks!

I hope today I will accomplish something in its complete format today LOL! I feel like all I ever do is clean , and I never see the payback . Yes I have alot , I do see that as well , what I don't see is my house improving , what good are things if you can't do your music or your art , because your house is all packed in boxes waiting to be finished so you can put the stuff back up . What good is having another house on your property to fix as an art retreat , when you don't have the money to fix it up in the first place . These are the tests the Universe has put upon me to pass , and I feel like its the hardest test to pass without the cash. So I guess my question is , " What do I do to make the cash come in ? "

Thanks to those of you who stop by a listen it means alot...

Love,

Maryannk : )

Art journaling with a touch of scrapbooking By Maryann 4rm Zero !

Sooo much goin' on , but Im lovin' it ! : P

Greetings & Salutations my friends ! How are all of you ? Well I am very overwhelmed with exciting things heading my way and I can't wait to show you the journey ! First off I am going to my yearly Coachella Music Festival , so I can't wait to show you that lovely journey and my remodeling of my home is back on so its suppositely gonna be done in 3 months so thats exciting so cross your fingers all goes well with that ! In the crafty department , I am making clothes for the music festival Im going to so I will also show you how those garments turn out & Im free motion quilting my travels to Europe about 5yrs ago . So all these things I got cooking plus found my focus on what I will be selling on my etsy that I have been yapping about but haven't put up because I was loosing focus on what to make and what to sell . I wanted to make sure it was a , " Me Thing " and that I wasn't trying to be someone else . I know that Im not Suzi Blu , or Tam /Willowing , Im not just a mixed media artist , and my medium is sewing /designing so I wanted to make sure that whatever I was going to make that it was truly me , not just another teacher in mixed media cuz lord knows there are plenty of mixed media teachers to choose from . I have always made clothes , and anything cloth and I just wanted to stick to my roots a little . So! I have finally found my place ! Very excited about finding myself through it all .

I still love my other crafts as well . Besides the mixed media arts , I still do my music with the hubby & we're finishing our music studio & after that we will be doing our next album , but whats more sweet about that is , its not just digital , its old school tape baby! Yes thats right ! ANALOG TAPE!! Like the good ol' days. Its gonna be sweet sounding tape squished through digital , its gonna be really warm sounding , can't wait ! My films that I do . I love still doing them . Every year I do a film on Coachella . I did a 3 part series last year . This year Im going to make it a little more documentary like . Im hoping I will be able to submit it into a couple of film festivals , which Im really excited about .

All in all life is one crazy journey , and Im determined to enjoy it! This last weekend was my birthday . I turned 42 . When this happened my daughter asked me "How do you feel being 42 mom ? I thought about it & said , " Not bad actually ! I don't feel mid-life crisis-ie , like alot of women I see around my neighborhood here in the desert LOL!" , we had a good laugh then my daughter & her dad ( my hubby) said lets take you on a good hike , like we use to do back in the day . I said sure I miss those hikes! Boy! Was I in for it ! I went on that hike that took 2 hours and I am recovering from the aches from it . My legs feel like their gonna fall off LOL! It was fun and I told them , Im glad I did it , & that I still got it at 42 !

So...thats whats been going on my bloggin' friends , I do have a art journal video in waiting that I need to edit and all that jazz , hopefully I can have that out before Coachella . Please ! make the best of life no matter what . Your not gonna get rid of your problems or troubles over nite , so grab a hold of them and remember to remind yourself that everything is going to be ok , somehow , someway . I do alot of worrying about family,friends,my stuff and you just have to ride it out . Thats all I can tell ya , because when I put all of that aside , life in the center , is really sweet!

I love my hubby , my daughter , my grandbaby very much , their love keeps me going , they made this birthday a really good one I tell ya. : P

Thanks for listening & stopping by it truly means so much to me ! : p

Love,

Maryann K.

Wishcast Wednsday : What do you wish for the world...

Hello ! Greetings & Salutations friends ! Again not been hangin' with my wishcast sistas , so sorry , I have missed you much , I really have . This mornin' I woke up and said to myself , " Its wednsday ! make sure you stop by Jamie Ridler's Wishcast Wednsday ! " , and here I am ! How have you all been ? Anyways today Jamie tandlizes our minds with the question , what do you wish for the world ? Well , Peace and Serenity NOW!!! The planet feels us destroying her and all for greed , we humans chop up the rainforest to use the land , for more shopping malls and track homes , when these investors are told what they are doing , they don't care its money they want , not saving the planet . How about whats going on with Africa with building a freeway to get to a metal that a company needs for cellphones , they don't even care what this will do to all the animals in the safari; that I wish to see someday, but yet that might not happen, because it will kill off the animals and they will become extinct. Lets not forget the natural disasters like hurricanes , tornatoes , and just recently the earthquakes in New Zealand and Japan . Or leaks such as the oil spills in the gulf of mexico , the possible nuclear meltdown. This all effects our precious mother earth , that we owe our exsistence to .

So to answer the question I did an art journal page on it . What I wish for is Serenity for the earth and her people ( US! )

Sorry if I got all righteous , but all this stuff just makes me feel so hopeless at times , because those of us who try by recycling , conserving water , it really isn't enough when you have corporations destroying the world with tons of money behind them , and how do we stop them , when all they have to do is buy people to walk away .

Until next time Wishcasters I love you as always and thanks for listening and stopping by!

Luv & Muah!

Maryannk