My life has been so crazy , when I thought I found balance , the balance wasn't their, it was an illusion of balance . I find myself from one place to the next and at one point you just have to say I need to be home to get MY STUFF DONE!! nothing else matters . Today I had to say STOP! TAKE CHARGE! No one puts their lives in check. I go into these anxiety attacks more often than the norm because I just don't see our dreams getting done . We really have no excuses . I find all I ever do is clean this place or that place and then do more at my living place and it sucks!
I hope today I will accomplish something in its complete format today LOL! I feel like all I ever do is clean , and I never see the payback . Yes I have alot , I do see that as well , what I don't see is my house improving , what good are things if you can't do your music or your art , because your house is all packed in boxes waiting to be finished so you can put the stuff back up . What good is having another house on your property to fix as an art retreat , when you don't have the money to fix it up in the first place . These are the tests the Universe has put upon me to pass , and I feel like its the hardest test to pass without the cash. So I guess my question is , " What do I do to make the cash come in ? "
Thanks to those of you who stop by a listen it means alot...
Maryannk : )