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Hi! My name is MaryAnn , in a nutshell , Im just a city gal who left the city to live life in the desert with dreams and a family I love very much. Im just an artists , tryin' to live my dreams , go where they take me , and just see what happens.

Monday, November 28, 2011

Hello everyone ! So much going on , its an exciting world!

Hello! Greeting & Salutations , I have missed blogging & talking to all my friends in this amazing artistic world , that I have grown to love very much & continue to love . As some of you may or may not know , I have decided to take the next step on this journey Im on , I got together with the family productions & am working on a beautiful piece , a portrait of an artist , that Im so fascinated by , her name is Amanda Sage . She calls herself a visionary artist , its a very interesting type of art that is becoming very known on the planet today . She has been mentored by Fuchs,Alex Gray, has so much life experience , she has been a wonderful muze to get to know through this documentary I've been doing about her. She has inspired me in a way , that I know that Im on the right path . I have enjoyed getting back to what I believed in ,but because of family & society have stepped away from . The truth is ; that I can't change me , I am who I am , and I have to stay who I am in order for me to succeed in my lifes mission to help the world , myself , my family.

I met Amanda at Nathans loft after a Hive show , I had heard about her threw Nathan who spoke very highly of her , he thought she was an awesome artist . So one day I asked her if she would be in my documentary about artists in Los Angeles . I got tired of everyone on the internet bagging on Los Angeles and how it had no art , so my mission is to show that this theory isn't true . I have met so many amazing artists here in lala land. I immediately scheduled time with her , so that I could get on this dream , what I didn't realize is that there was so much more that just her being an artist , it was a spiritual goddess warrior mission she is on , and her story just was like a dream , a dream I wanted to be a part of . I felt I had met Amanda for a reason . Not only for myself but for everyone to see through my lens. I realized after talking with her that I didn't know it but that I too, was on the same path as Amanda and the universe , ohala,god,goddess brought her to me to wake up!
Since spending time with her , my life has been more exciting lately than before . All these doors are opening and Im scared sometimes to walk through , thinking that Im not ready or questioning am I ? Yet I keep walking threw these doors & walking these trails , and finding that it was the best thing I could do for myself , for my lil' family.

If theres anything I can say to all the dreamers & aspiring artists in this world , is LIVE THE DREAM! Don't let family ,friends, the naysayers of the planet , make you think otherwise! Go for it! What do you gotta loose except not doing it ; but see thats the key! When you do the work to get you there , doors WILL OPEN! No joke ! I was told all the time from family , friends , naysayers , that I couldn't do it , that I was not a professional , yet I went with my own perception that I could , that I was talented , and now Im an art resident to a really cool art gallery , I meet so many cool artists that inspire me to do more . I have respect for my work that I didn't know I was worthy of that respect . Im humble for this respect , its so surreal to me , Im not use to this kind of attention .
Be who you truly are , don't let people make you dought YOU ! Im tryin' to get my lil' family understand that they need to be who they really want to be , because my daughter & her boyfriend had my grandbaby early in their lives ,after that they didn't know how to be or if what they wanted to be was good enough. They both are supported by boyfriends family , and they are not to keen on either one of them becoming artists or anything creative because they believe that this will not make them money . What I try to get them to understand is you got to love you first , then you can go on to be who you truly are meant to be! Its really that simple . Once you do that then what you want to do will come to you , and then go on from there. If a person can't decide what they want to be , then that soul will just settle for anything , possibly making that person a unhappy one. Don't be unhappy , don't settle , LIVE YOUR DREAMS!! DO IT!

Thanks for listening as always,

Maryann k / 4rm Zero!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011

Wishcast Wednsday : What is your greatest wish?

Wow! Can't believe that I have blogged two days straight LOL! Its been a while Wishcasters . How are all of you ? I have missed blog hoppin with you all . Im glad to be joining all you wonderful peeps today . Today Jamie asks us, " What is our greatest wish ? Its pretty simple and straight forward . My greatest wish is to succeed in the projects Im embarking on . I have been doing a documentary on Los Angeles artists & its been exciting , but scary at the same time so sometimes I go into these panic attacks of, " What the hell are you thinking! "LOL! at least I still continue to do it . Im also teaching a free e-course called the Travellin Art journal and I think to myself again, " What are you doing! " yet at least Im still doing that , in fact editting the next episode as I write this . Threw all the dought , Im still trudgin' along , I just don't like the head trips you give yourself,cuz you think its impossible but its not, its just alot of work is all , which is good ! I know... neways so the pic above is my camera shots for next weeks shoot with one of the artists in the documentary.
I am so glad I took the time to Wishcast today with you fellow Wishcasters , you always remind me Im not alone in the feelings and head trips that we get in life, thank you for reminding me that their is a group of lovely people that come together to cheer eachother on . : )

As always thanks for listening it means alot : )

luv Maryannk

Heres my latests video of my The Hive Gallery that Im the artists filmmaker at very proud to be one of the artists residents at this amazing art gallery in Los Angeles.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Movement with Jamie Ridler : p

Hello everyone! Its been a while since I posted here . My life got busy,or should I say , I have chosen to be busy LOL! so it kind of got in the way of my bloggin'. Neways, I have decided to join Jamie Ridler on her monthly journey,and this month it is on "MOVEMENT". She's talking about , just getting out or just moving like on a treadmill or hiking ,walking etc. Just moving your body to make ya feel good . It does , I try to hike as much as possible. I just can't do the excerise thang , the thought of going to a gym doesn't sound fun to me . I love hiking! Thats how I move.Its a great way to get the oxygen going in your lungs , clearing your mind , its like walking meditation . The picture above is of my family & I in Big Bear again,and everytime we go out there , we make it a "MUST" to hike . The last time we hiked up here it was still dry , now fall is here and we have snow up in our Cali mountains,its exciting to see the seasons change and feel the crispy cold air on your face & see the beautiful snow.
So yeah! I will be hiking today , you should try it if you get a chance , even if its just a little bit , it will make ya feel good mentally and physically. I hope you will stop by Jamies blog & join us in "MOVEMENT" it will make ya feel good & all the gals who participate are awesome!

Thanks for listening , it means alot. : )

until next time,

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Hello Wishcasters & my new Travellers !

Hello Wishcasters & I welcome my Travellers from my new TAJ=Travellin' Art Journal Series FREE e-course . I haven't wishcast in two weeks , I tried last week & my energy was off from various typical in-law B.S. LOL! Yes! I have in-laws that probably wish I wasn't in their lives LOL! Its sad though, cuz all of them live VERY unhappily and that has nothing to do with me. Neways Im feeling good this week.You know my little family we always kept to ourselves , we live in the desert ,& we had always been close when my daughter was growing up . When my daughter was born about 20yrs ago ( yikes! Im crusty LOL!) she didn't cry . She was such an amazing baby , & as she grew threw the years , my husband & I always knew we had a great kid. Because of the manipulations of my interesting mother-n-law ,she always played mind games with both her grandchildren , still does to this day.My daughter was very close to her cousin & now there not . He lives with his grandparents now , so that lets ya know whats going on there. We stay away as much as possible from all of the depressing people that live in my in-laws house,because on top of everything else , they believe that my husband & I are horrible parents,& that my daughter is a horrible grandchild, well maybe not my father n law he adores my daughter,but her grandmother won't allow her to talk to him on the phone or to take him out anywhere,she just doesn't like my daughter.My little family that was just 3 of us( & recently a new addition 3yrs ago my grandbaby Athena Rose) , we were put threw the ringer . My evil mother n law doesnt think its fair if one of her sons are happy & not the other . Well that was 20yrs of trying to be happy . My brother n law is an alcoholic,recovered heroin addict , & recently just got out of jail . I tell ya , when he was in jail thats probably the most I ever got along with my mother n law . Then he got out , & evil M-n-L,is back on her everyone needs to be losers again,everyone needs to be unhappy.Sorry for telling a story,I guess you people are the only ones I can talk to & your always so nice , & make me realize that we all go through some form of B.S. in our lives. Neways this is a family pattern that isn't going away , but my happy lil family,we can go away,stay away from these people,that don't think the best of us anyway .

That brings me to my lil family :

This is my beautiful daughter Krystal Rose . Yeah , not all the time is she the nicest gal toward me . We're definitely alike LOL! so we do bump heads from time to time . Lately her & I have really understood one another . I can thank her boyfriends mother for that one , because my daughter has a mother n law who's kinda like my M-n-L too! Its funny cuz with all the bad mouthing her parents from my MnL , my mom & then BF's mom , it made her so confused poor thing, that she took a break from school for a whole year to go to a phsycologist ,where the doctor focused on her " BAD PARENTS". After she spent that whole year having a shrink help
her figure her parents out, she came to me one day & said ," Im gonna stop going to my therapist". I then said , " Are you sure , because you know, we messed you up & all (suppositely) & the therapist is trying to help you from our horriblness LOL!" My daughter told me," No mom,I realize that everything that you did was different . I was around musicians who were nice to me , let me hang out with dad in the recording studio,we always went camping,you both were always there for me, the problem happened when we were trying to save my uncle because thats what grandma wanted & dad didn't say no." I looked up to my daughter & saw her face,& right before me was a beautiful girl , that I brought into this world , healing right before my eyes. I realized then ,that its all about allowing the healing process .

Today The Healing Family

This picture makes me happy & probably makes my MnL very angry . This is my daughter & my hubby working together to figure out this really cool camera equipment that my daughter got to rent from her school. OH! I forgot to tell ya that our horrible parenting , got my daughter into CAL-ARTS , this school is the most difficult art school to get into ,& she got in.

Finally Jamie Ridlers wishcast question ," What do I wish to make time for ? "I want to make time for enjoying MY LIL FAMILY! One thing that my daughter & I are in agreement on is my precious grandbaby girl will NEVER know the kind of yukiness that my daughter saw growing up around her uncle. Its creepy cuz my grandbaby is going to turn 3yrs old this weekend , and thats when my MnL started to resent my daughter & my hubby's relationship. My MnL wanted to be the only women in my hubbys life & well now theres 3 girls he loves very much.What my MnL doesn't understand is that my hubby loves his mom very much also & the more she continues this evil family pattern of hers , my hubby is finally understanding that,its about being happy , not dark & depressed all the time.

This is my grandbaby,I hope to be the kind of grandmother my MnL wasn't for my daughter,I will never tell her she's fat, I will never tell her shes a whore or make her think such a thing. I will always tell her to live her dreams! How can any right minded women tell her 3yr old grandchild horrible things , look how precious she is? Just like my daughter was and still is!

The one thing I always have told my daughter , be who you truly want to be . Live your dreams ! When I found out my daughter was pregnant at 16 ,I thought like everyone else , Its Over! Her dreams & aspirations gone! But! Im not one to ever think like that , so I continued to tell her you still can do it! You still can be a filmmaker,don't let anyone tell you otherwise! so the whole family go out & we're the best crew she could ever have I tell ya! For being a "BAD PARENT" , my daughter is still going for her dream! Watch out! You'll be seeing her movies someday.

So as I come to the end of my story , I tell you that , we all have our own pain . Lets learn to rise from it & heal . I will be honest the forgiving part will come in time, Im yet to find it . Healing happens when you stop listening to all those that don't want you to be happy or try to keep you from healing. We need that space to heal and no one is gonna give that to you except YOU! Thats why Im teaching my new e-course called the Travellin' Art Journal Series its FREE!I focus on this kind of stuff , if anyone knows about excepting , letting go,& becoming free from all the judgement, it is this teacher right here. Break through the judgement , the anger , the recentment. Start healing , start loving yourself again !

Here is the 2/3 episode of The Travellin' Art Journal Series please subscribe on the right hand side so you can get the next episode in your email , I hope to see you there !

Thank you Wishcasters for listening . You and Jamie Ridler have always had a place in my heart , you always remind me that Im not alone in the obstacles of life.
We all try to help one another.

Until next time ,
Chao ! XOXO,
MaryannK/4rm Zero

Tuesday, October 4, 2011

The Girl Effect , help these girls have a future.

It's time to make a difference for the girls , who need to have a chance , to have an education , not be sold from their parents for food , to have a choice to be a mother and a wife when they choose ,after they go to college and get a degree. Its time these young girls , children , not walk everyday thinking is my time up as a child , never knowing until it happens , and they are sent off to marry and have children , just an object , not human in those who do this to them . These girls are just things to be sold for their families to survive .
Tara Mohr has put up a blogging campaign, for all bloggers to go on their blogs & tell the message of The Girl Effect Project . After you have blogged for the cause , for these young girls to have a chance for a future of education , and to be a woman who can make her own choices for her,post at Taras blog . Lets make a difference blogger friends !
Thank You ,


Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Hello Wishcasters! What do I wish for fall ?

What do you wish for fall ? Wishcasting by Jamie Ridler
Hello wishcasters ! How are all of you since last wednsday ? So the beautiful
Jamie Ridler asks us , " What do you wish for fall ? Well first , that we get a real good true fall LOL! I live in California , and its always warm out here , don't get me wrong, I love Cali ! but we do get into the spirit of the seasons , and it would be nice for a REAL fall season . I also wish that things continue to be interesting in my life with my art . I am about to launch my first EVER e-course this saturday and its FREE! I wanted to help and show others that Art Journaling can be something that helps you get through the day , get out whats eating inside you , and to embrace the good days . I also just found out , that I was asked by The Hive Gallery to be one of there resident artists at the gallery . I was so excited , and in ah about it . I just recently got invited to another gallery next door to The Hive called The Temple of Visions and Im just excited to be taken seriously in my art and that its Artists Helping Artists , which I love the most about all of this. So the final answer is :

That everything continue to go the way they are going UP!

Please subscribe to my Free e-course we will have fun

Thanks for listening Wiscasters ! As you wish for yourself , I wish for you also! : )


Sunday, September 25, 2011

Chapter 6 of the Artist Way project with Paula

Happiest Sunday to you all I have had a serious Artist Date today , a beautiful day to celebrate ending the Chapter 6 on Abundance . Chapter 6 of the Artist Way by Julia Cameron ,but the project by Paula at Happy Snappy.

The picture above is of what Dave and I call , " Our Girls !" My daughter & grandbaby . I don't see them all that much , but when I do , I cherish every moment I spend with them .

I realize while Im here writting about what my Artist date meaning of today was , I think to myself , there is alot of abundance in my life and I only get more of it when Im happy and learn to focus on that happiness and love every moment of it . Today my daughter needed to do a film project for a class assignment . Shes a film student at Cal-Arts here in Los Angeles. She came over for the weekend to film her project in the backyard . The subject our grandbaby Athena Rose . Athena dressed up in her favorite outfit. Too cute!

Athena was ready to be the Shirley Temple she could be ! She was a fairy and that was a part she could play very easy . So she got all dressed up & was ready for her mommy to film her. She's a real actress Athena is!

My life is full of abundance when Im reminded of the abundance looking at my grandaughter,dressed as the cute princess fairy with her pink zebra shorts & her ugg boots on walking through our desert land with the sun setting . Just looking at this is abundance looking right back at me.

My Krystal Rose , she always likes a difficult challenge in life , I guess she just likes to be challenged in life . She's a great filmmaker , she hasn't done much in a long time with her filmming , but now that she's back in school at Cal-Arts she's realizing she is full of abundance herself she's got a family who supports her very much . : )

This moment right here , completed my artist date . I knew I had alot to be thankful for . I am loved , I love , and we all love to help eachother out with our arts . Im glad as artists that all of us in my family , continue to support eachother in our arts and thats alot of remembering what is Abundance in my life .

Thanks for stopping by and listening to my story of Abundance for the Artist Way Project.

Until Next Time ,
Maryann k XOXO!

Hey everyone ! Subscribe to The Travellin' Art Journal Series!

Hello everyone! Hope your havin' a wonderful Sunday ! I want to let you all know that the time is coming near to the launching of The Travellin' Art Journal Series .
Some people have posted on my facebook group there that they didn't know what it was/is , so I will explain what we do here :
The Travellin' Art Journal is about art journaling on the go . What this means is if you are runnin' around doin' your airons( sorry probably mispelled that) taking the kids to football,soccor practice , waiting outside for them after school, its learning to take your art journal on the go with you to get time in your art journal . I will be showing you :
1.) What easy supplies to take with you so travellin' with the art journal & kit.
2.) What type of art journal to get or take with you.
3.) There will be videos of how to travel & do art journaling while you
are on the go .
4.) I will tell ya what to look for to motivate your art journaling so you
always have a idea or topic to art journal about.
5.) And other secret fun projects because the holidays are coming!
6.) And Me ! Your coach cheering you on : )

So subscribe right here , this is a email that will be sent to you everytime I put up a new video of the Travellin' A.J. showing you how I get through my day and still find time to dive into my Art Journal , sign up you will be happy you did , and what do ya got to lose , ITS FREE!!!

I look forward to seeing all that you do while your on the go , see ya on the 1st of October !

Luv always!

Wednesday, September 21, 2011

my art journals I have done for prompts and myself.

Its o.k. to be me .FocusWe're in a Coma Altered book pageBrokenSome thoughts on what I was feelingOnly Human art journal page SOARUNBELIEVABLEsilence_2WHATHOPEUnknown Catalyst 100 for Creative Therapycatalyst 99 for Creative Therapylisten_dream

These are some of my art journal pages I have done.

Hey Wishcasters & If your not , you should be : )

" What do you Wish to immerse yourself in ?
Hello Wishcasters ! How are you ? I feel I was just talkin' to ya , and now its wednsday again! Can you believe that ? Before ya know it , it will be xmas , and all that stress right? LOL! neways , we are being asked by the lovely Jamie Ridler , "What do you wish to immerse yourself with ? Well... I would have to say in what Im doing at the moment . I have told you all so many times how its so difficult to stay focused on all the projects I have put before me , that I start to feel overwhelmed & all that , well ! I finally said its time to lay out , THE PLAN!!! Reet!Reet!Reet!(woman in horror screaming in the background ! )LOL!

So I thought , let me art journal THE PLAN!!! so I did and ya know what? It calm me splashing all the color , then I realized , what do I have to do to get THE PLAN going? But then I said, " What is THE PLAN?" So I thought about the projects I was doing and I put them into catagories & put each project into a flower , why a flower you ask , well first , why not? It was art in my A.J. and flowers grow and blossom and thats what I feel my projects are . So I put them all in their flower & then put lines outside of them of what tasks I needed to do to get idea blooming , an outline of what to do or what needed to get done . Ta da! all of a sudden , it was all clear , my panic gone! Now I just have to stay focused , the hardest thang about doing art . But! not to worry , my A.J. will guide me . So after I did THE PLAN outline in artful fun form , I started painting stuff . Now remember I have been just splashing paint on fabric writting on it ,drawing things randomly but I hadn't done any of the painting stuff that we have all learned from everyone on YouTube on those lovely NING sites we all pay top dollar for . And honestly , I was tired of making dollies LOL! I swear, one more learn how to make a dollie Im gonna scream! LOL! Everyone is so lovely on those NING sites, but can we please learn something new now, that doesn't cost me alot of money for something I already learned from Suzi Blu thank you very much!LOL! neways ,so I started drawing & painting again .

And this is what I would like to immerse myself with painting stuff that matters,
that speaks of who I am , what I love about the world ,what fancies my mind , my heart , my art .I still have issues with the fear & the hard work to get me there , but! Im doing it and just as long as you continue everyday toward THE PLAN be proud cuz you did something toward what you love that day , and thats all that matters . So the painting up above is actually for my bag line I've been telling you about . So two of my flowers were on this subject and the other flower was on my videos and my music .

Both of these crafts are so important to me . Since I started doing the videos more doors have opened for me. My music with my hubby Dave is very important as well because I believe what the lyrics( my hubby wrote all the songs ) is all about . My videos opened the door to helping other artists in L.A. and I feel that is so important . I am very proud to be from Los Angeles , we gettin' downed by people who don't know that there are so many talented artists here but no one knows about them because , the critics choose whos hot and whos not.

So I immerse myself with the Flowers of ART!!

So there ya have it wishcasters , if your not a wishcaster yet,please head over to the linkie beside my blog or clickie on the highlighted words and become a wishcaster today . You will love it I promise , you feel that your not alone in what your faced with in life , and its a comfy cozy place to be , it makes you feel better.

Oh ! Im gonna be remodelling here on me bloggy so , it might look weird for a couple of days , so given ya the heads up on my blog remodel so don't be alarmed , Im getting it ready for the travellin' art journal series I was telling ya about ,so stay tuned for that , I want all of you to join , its free ! : ) It will be fun , prompts , guest speakers & just a hole bunch of goodness ! : )

As always thanks for stopping by friends , it means so much , all your comments of positive goodness , makes me smile when I talk to you all! : )


Thanks luvs ya!

Maryann k.

Heres a music video of my band THE MAGIC BUZZ enjoy!

Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Wishcast Weds! What guidance do you wish for?

Hello Wishcasters ! How are all of you ? I didn't wishcast last week , was busy with these videos I've been doing , not to mention Im working on my travellin' art journal series , which is gonna be free ! Yes thats right! Excited about it because , I know we're in hard times so its very difficult to buy these e-courses online here on the web. Im still gonna be selling my art journals & bags for the art journal , but not my videos , because nothing Im showing you is rocket science LOL! Its just a way to get out & learn how to pull out your art journal , what supplies to take , & what to look for when working in your art journal . I 've had women ask me what do you art journal about or I don't know how to draw or what to draw . All those questions I show you step by step , and you don't need to know how to draw , sometimes you don't even need to draw just slap some color & write & there you go , it is done! So stay tuned for that k? Neways sorry got side tracked .
Today is Wishcast Wednsday with Jamie Ridler . Today she asks What guidance do you wish for? A good question.... thinking about this one...I guess it would be...is the path I chose the right one ? I am an artist , but what part of the arts do I go with? My career when I was working was a costumer for Power Rangers , remember that show? Yeah here in Los Angeles I was the one in the back of the studio working on all the costumes , I made all of them with another gal , and when the stunt guys beat them up , there we were making new ones . I think I am stayin' with the career I chose , Im still sewing away , making bags for the artists , so I guess Im on the right path , I just find myself very confused . I do make videos too , and it seems that is what Im getting recognized for , but I guess Im doing too many things at the same time and feel Im not focused in one direction . Im also tired of thinking that I should stick to one thing as well , I do get bored , in one craft , then end up doing another craft . Its like a distraction from one art form , to do another art form . Is that wrong? I don't know....Im just runnin' with it gals! Its all I can do from keep me from goin' insane.LOL! Seriously,its a mind boggler I tell ya !
Well that sums that up on this beautiful day ! : )

Thanks , as always for listening , it always means the world to me : )

Maryann K

Tuesday, September 13, 2011

Good Morning Pages with Jamie & Paula with the Artist Way Project

Hello Bloggers! How are you this morning ! I know Im yelling but Im jus waking up
to this beautiful day , havin' my cup o' joe , its nice outside its not hot for once , being that I live in Cali , so.cal at that , so it gets pretty hot out here . Neways I finally ordered my Artist Way book from Amazon yesterday . I was so happy I finally took the time to order it .Even though Paula and everyone over had her blog for the Artist Way Project have been very understanding , I feel so much better that now I can keep up with the chapters & know what questions to answer. Jamie Ridler has started The Morning Pages group over at her site , and if you've been following my blog , you know that I have been a big fan of Jamie Ridler Studios & taking her e-courses have really woke me up to what I'v been denying , fearing , what Im good at , and what is truly tangible in creating my art . I've learned so much , not to mention , all the gals over there are so nice . Im not kidding once you go over there and start meeting the gals ; for example , at Wishcast Wednsday , thats how I've met Paula who's doing the Artists Way Project , their all just such nice women , who are supportive & you feel what there going threw as well and we all just boost eachothers spirits , which I think is so important , especially for those of us who don't get out much or maybe the women we know in our lives just don't get us because we are artists or inspire to be , they just can't relate . These gals are so there , I can't wait for tomorrow when I can say hello to all the Wishcasters. So if you get a chance mozy on over to Wishcast Wednsday , I promise you will feel amazing afterwards. Now lets start on these morning pages shall we..

So I wake up go to my sofa in the livingroom & who is always beside me , my precious kitty Bon Deen , she has so many nicknames and she knows them all LOL! My daughter always tells me your gonna confuse your cat , but my Bon Deen is just the cutest isn't she? So I wake up feeling loved by my little creature friend . So yesterday , I was full of anxiety to get stuff done . It was one of those days where I felt like , I wasn't doing enough . I started panicing about everything , I was jumpy . It was really a terrible feeling . My hubby Dave calmed me down , told me that I shouldn't feel that way because I had been doing so much . After hearing him tell me all the stuff I had been doing , I came back down , but I hate goin' there . I really do , its so not healthy . I've been working with this art gallery , doing films of their art shows , meeting amazing artists & I enjoy it , the artists fascinate me , inspire me , but I always go into " But I can do more!" or " Theres more than this!" , it's like its never enough , like Im not doing enough. I love what I stand for . I believe Im true to what I feel defines me . I always stand tall and say , " Yeah , I am an artist of all things , I believe all artists should be seen and heard , the artists that no one knows about ." Im tired of society sayin' who can be known or not based on what they think is worthy art , I believe all artists are worthy . Thats why I make these films . So everyone can see what I see . Im really excited about this next video of the art gallery . My focus was not only on the art , but the getting to know the artists that made the art . I found their thoughts so inspiring and they fascinated me . I feel Im running with it all . What I mean by that is , Im just going with the flow , one minute Im watching art , getting to know the artists that created it , and the next minute becoming an artists threw being inspired by them , and making my own art , art journaling every chance I get . Just loving the creative !
I know all of us face our own obstacles , fears and it can be really difficult at times , to where you get that anxiety I felt yesterday . You have to bring yourself back down , calm your mind , meditate , bring it all back to prospective ,and realize it will be ok , some how , some way . It has to be ! I mean Hope is all we've got when you go there , we have to remind ourselves that NO! Im not gonna stop ! Im gonna fight for what it is I want out of this life and continue to go get it!
Thanks for listening , it always means alot : )

Until next time Chao! Muah! XOXO


Monday, September 5, 2011

Morning pages with Jamie Ridler & sundays date for Paula's artists way project

Hello all ! I have been one busy bee and I always want to try to blog/vlog as much as I can , to let you know , it can be done ! I am making my dreams come true , lots is happening and its even stuff that hasn't happened yet , that is happening. Neways so Saturday I went to my art show , that I was invited to by the gallery , I had told you on my last wishcast weds that , they liked my video and ask me to do the next show . I liked the fact that each show is very different than the last . I focused my energy on the artists this time around . All of the artists were very nice and it was nice to get to know them through their art. So I can't wait to show you that video. Im also working on this video on my Peru trip for a contest , its due tomorrow but Im not really worried about it . Its a 3 minute montage so thats easy peasy for me LOL! Yesterday I I slept in and Dave asked me if I wanted to take a walk outside to get some fresh air because I had been couped up editting all the rest of the day . I said sure , I walked into this scene above here . It was an amazing day with the thunder storms going on . We used to get these all the time every summer , and we hadn't got them in a while , so it was nice to get a little rain in a summer day .

So I decided to head on out for my walk to the retreat on the other side of my property , I want you to meet my friend that I always talk to when I go on this walk to the other place , I call him " Buffalo Boy" , he's my neighbor's Buffalo , he gets lonely sometimes so I always stop by and chat with him for a bit , everytime I say goodbye he moo's at me , isn't that sweet ? I can say for my sunday date , it would have to be hangin' with " Buffalo Boy" !

What I always remind myself , when I walk down this trail , everytime , is my life is different . Things are changing , my life is happening the way I want it to , even though everything has been , as an artists that I met on saturday said , " RANDOM ".
He is so right ! If the Universe could give me the message anymore direct from this artist is that message . You just kind of have to go with the flow sometimes . Thinking about how , what , when , where , sometimes doesn't get the goal or dream going .
We need to overcome our fears and stop making excuses for why we can't do it . Just do it! So walking down this path after a nite of fun and hanging out with inspiring artists, was a different feeling in this path ,a feeling that I was going somewhere....

The Sunflowers also remind me of change , how they're here for a short time and then they fade away , until next season , but when they're here for the little time they are , they bloom with happiness , its like they're telling me , " Hey Im so happy Im here , I want you to be happy with me ! " Doesn't it look like thats what this sunflower is sayin....

Then God/Universe reminds me that I am loved . I have been with Dave for 22yrs now . We have had one crazy, fun , scary life together . I know he's my soulmate Dave . He's more than just a husband , he is my bestfriend , I know I've known him in past lives , because when I met him for the first time , it felt like I knew him . We understand the meaning of living your dreams . That was like the first thing we said before we went into this relationship , was do we understand we are dreamers and to respect eachother for those dreams we chose to live . We both said Yes! To this day we support eachother to the fullest . It doesn't matter that everyone else doesn't believe in us , it only matters that we believe in eachother and I think that is what has kept us persuing our dreams , our goals . After taking our walk we end up at the retreat and the roses are blooming , so Dave cut me a flower and said this is for you . Awww ! How sweet this guy of mine is....

I took my flower & smelled its fragrance that it was born to be , this beautiful odor of what it means , love , beauty, and it gives you great feelings! I felt that when I touched this yellow rose .

Here I am ! More confident than I've been in a long time ! I feel empowered . I have respect from artists . Respect for my work and what I feel I stand for . Im not about popularity or fame , even though I am an artist of all things like I always say , I am a dam good musician , I sing like a bird because of the amazing producer who guides me to learn to keep my pitch & he composes great songs that I stand by and stand for . I am a fashion designer , I never forget what lured me to art in the first place . I did go to fashion design school , which I had studied several years in art as one of the requirement in fashion design , but it was always a requirement I loved taking. I've come to realize that I want to give back not only with my art ,but to show that their are other talented artists out there that are amazing and to know that these artist are people too. They dare to get out there , meet other like minded people who believe in the arts , I found that we all want to pitch in our part , because we want to help one another out . My videos are getting recognized by Los Angeles because I choose to give back by showing people an art gallery in Los Angeles and these people in this art gallery are artists coming together to create a show where they can show their art together and get to know the people who come to see their art. To be able to give back to them , by showing the world what an art gallery can do , and how everyone in this place are fun , exciting people , I have enjoyed having a conversation with all of them .
And that my friends is my mission !


So that is my mission that I have discovered in my morning pages and with my artists date for Artist way project .

Thanks for listening as always , it means alot! : )

Maryannk/ Maryann 4rm Zero!

Wednesday, August 31, 2011

Wishcast Weds ! What do you wish to say NO to ?

Hello Wishcasters ! Its been a while , I know . I have missed you , don't think I haven't . Neways , since taking the e-courses I won from the video luv contest , so many things are happening . Kinda overwhelming ! In a nutshell , I have taking my filming to a new level in my life . I went to an art gallery & asked if I could meet some of the artist so I could do a film/documentary , haven't decided yet which one I will do , and the gallery greeted me with open arms , the curator , asked me if I was gonna film the show they were having called , "BEE -ROTICA" I said sure I would love to do it . Well I finished the video and they loved it! The owner of the gallery told me that I was welomed as their guest for any of their shows , and that they would love for me to do more videos . Can you believe it? So this is why I haven't been here .
Well back to wishcasting , today Jamie asks ," What do you wish to say no too?" this question couldn't come at a better time for me . I would have to say I would like to say no to all the Naysayers! I am so tired of certain family and friends judging me in what I do . I am that I am ! Im just me ! I am an artist who loves to be around other artists that understand , that just doing it is sometimes enough . Yes , would we all want to become famous in are art ? I guess if that is what some fancy , but I just want my art to be seen and heard and artists they get it and most of all they know how to be , and go with the flow and most of all be happy around their art community family . I found that , the night I went to The Hive gallery . Everyone was so nice to me and the owner of the gallery invited Dave and I to his loft after the show , and I got to experience hangin with a whole bunch of cool artists and it was amazing! I had a really good time .
Don't let anyone tell you your not , because thats just a bunch of bull*#%?! You are everything you want to be , if you just let yourself be just that. I realized these people family/friends can't change me , I love who I am ! I have tried so many times to change me because I wanted to please society for my kids ,everyone ,and I always go back to me , because Im comfortable being the REAL ME . So what! I look like a hippie ! Sorry SOCIETY ! Thats just WHO I AM!! Ya better get use to it .
So there ya have it Wishcasters ! Be who you truly are, say no to all the naysayers judgement because you consider yourself an artist ! You can be anyone you want to be no matter what , remember that . I stepped out of my shell , did what Jamie Ridler said to do in these e-courses & she really got me to get out there , so Jamie thank you for getting me out of my shell , your courses are working for me . Im so glad I won those e-courses , it was a big sign from the Universe when that happened , and ever since my life has changed for me . Im more positive , Im still scared , but walk through that fear anyway , where as before I would have just given up and now doors have opened for me . People , talented people have taken me seriously for my work , and that just gives me butterflies in my stomach . I have respect from the art society in Los Angeles that I have never had in my life before and its overwhelming , it feels so strange to me . The art community in Los Angeles really know Maryann 4rm Zero !
Thanks for listening as always Wishcasters your all such great souls and I value being one of the Wishcasters !

Until next time I loves ya a bunches ! Muah! XOXO

Maryann 4rm Zero!

Check out my video that I did of THE HIVE these peeps
are such fun , real beez...